#147
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gonna eat my dinner now
- guess it will be a hard night sleep for me.
good nite.
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you can go way up high one moment, and down, way down deep the next.
really really wished i can dissappear from this moment right now.
do i still be the nice old me? trying to respect and be nice to everyone?
or do i just be a hateful person who refuse to give any respect for undeserving people anymore?
i really have no idea.
all the misdeliberate? all the question marks? all the crap.
if you are reading this and you felt smth - then its you im refering to.
sorry. im really down these days.
if frends out there reads it and finds it annoying then im sorry.
i really duno wat to do anymore =(
well.. see wat happens this week.
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Song i wish i can better understand and is dedicated to myself
Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
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back to my real-life.
its mp DAY 2
wasnt as productive as i wished i could be.
anyways.. helped mr sankara with his joomla site.
i hope i can help him as much as i can even thou i am clueless about it.
took bus home today and was almost dozing off sadly.
this girl got up the bus and she keep staring at me - perharps im too red.
dozed and woke up. kao she still staring right in front of me.
i guess its cuz my hair damm messy or maybe i slept while drooling? not sure.
ok i guess tmr will be a BORING DAY.
not looking forward